Well it's almost the 2011 and I haven't posted much on here in 2010. I started blogging because I wanted to share what goes on with me and my family. What are hobbies are and things that we experience. I got really discouraged when I realized that no one reads it, but there is so much that I've learned over the last year that I realized I really should have kept my blogging up to date. It's not about how many people read it, it's about sharing with just right people/person at the right time. So here it goes and I promise that I will keep up with it in the coming new year (one of my resolutions).

I will give a quick highlight of 2010, first and most importantly my 2 children gave their life to Jesus, my daughter in Janurary and my son in May. In June the 2 of them and their dad all got baptized! This happened the day after we came home from Alive 2010 (if you don't know what this is here is the website Alive.org). I have a few pictures up on my facebook page (taylortown community church life teen). My son (Robby) started driving, decided that he wanted to go the Pioneer JVS, had his first girlfriend and got to play some varsity football. He's had a year of alot of changes but he's adjusted well. My daughter (Leesha) is really doing good in school, since she entered school she has struggled every year, we held her back in 2nd grade thinking that we might have started her too soon. That helped for that year because she remembered alot of things that she had already learned, but when she hit 3rd grade her sturggles started all over again except this time she got tested for learning disabilities and it came back that she struggles with short term memory. She is now in the 4th grade and has an IEP teacher to help with her work and she is having a TERRIFIC year. We have went to church regularly this year and man oh man has God really worked in our lives! My marriage isn't even close to the way it used to be. I feel like I got divorced and married a new man, (which by the way I'm still married to the same one LOL). God has worked on Charlie and I so much that it's hard to believe we are the same people.

I was talking to a friend a while back and was telling her about being discouraged lately, I was teaching the teens class at my church (Taylortown Community Church) and it really just wasn't going as I had planned. The attendance consisted of just my 2 kids and maybe 1 other one if I was lucky. I got really discourage and just stopped teaching, then I got the idea of feeding the football team after the friday night home games (thinking that if I could just get them into the church then maybe just maybe some of them would start coming to sunday school and church) well that didn't workout either. Have you ever felt like you had a calling to do something and then when you stepped out to do it, it didn't work out? Well that's where I was at. I have to be honest about this, I'm thinking that for right now I my calling might have been taken aways for awhile, that may not make sense but I got a "righteous" when I started teaching and got an holyier than thou attitude. I'd like to say not a bad attitude but in God's eyes it wasn't a humble attitude. Proud is the word I've been looking for (had to sit here for awhile and try to think of it). So anyways a couple of months ago when my friend and I were talking I was telling her about my struggles and she recommended that I keep a record of it. That's where this blog is coming in. Everyday I find myself struggling! Trying to live a life that reflects God's love, doing the right things, saying the right things, reading my bible and so on. Why does itseem to get so overwhelming sometimes? How many times am I going to go around this mountain? My favorite saying is from Joyce Meyer, "I might not be where I should be, but Thank God I'm not where I used to be". Isn't that the truth!~ I don't want to be anywhere near where I used to be a few years ago. I was sooo lost and spent soo much time feeling confused, rying to be at peace. That's one of the reason why I felt the urge to help with the kids, so many of them are lost and confused and terrified on the inside. I watch Robby (17) trying to act like he's got it all together, trying to make decisions on his own, sometimes handling situations that he's just no able to handle by himself and he's not the only one I know, his friends are the same way. My heart just aches for these kids. I don't want any of them to have to wait until they are grown to have peace, that's my goal.

Oh my gosh!

Hello everyone!! Long time, no blog :) I've been extrememly lazy about blogging. I'm sorry, I have a tendancy to loose my inspiritation easy.



Here's a few updates about church

1. My youth group went to Alive 2010 at Atwood lake near New Philidelphia Ohio. What an awesome weekend of worhip and praise! If you can at all attend a christian concert, please do so. They are so spiritually uplifting.



2. My son, daughter and husband were all baptized on June 27, 2010. God is performing miracles every second of everyday. It is really inspiring to see kids get baptized, go to the alter and etc.



3.We are getting ready to have a rummage/bake sale at church for our blessing box fund. Our church fills shoeboxes every fall and takes them down to another organization called Evanelistic Outreach, who then take them to the Appalachian Region for the needy. If you would like to get involved here is the list of items needed.
http://taylortownchurch.com/blessing.html

4. Our churches vacation bible school starts July 26th - 30th. We are having a Fun day on July 31st for the kids. Please come out and join us! Here is the link if you would like to sign your kids up http://taylortownchurch.com/id42.html.

Updates about my family

Robby got his license in May! He's so excited about being able to drive. Always a big milestone in your life. He's been weight lifting all summer, getting ready for football. This week he's been working the little kids camp in the morning, weightlifting in the afternoon and then his captains practice in the evening. He's sure been busy!

Leesha played softball this summer, which she really enjoyed. Then she's spent most of her time swimming at her buddy Brycen's. I'm so thankful for the friends they both have. All are such great kids!

Charlie's hours have finally dropped a little for him at work. Thank God! He was working about 70 - 75 hours a week which is great financially but for the home life it really took a beating. I'm thankful that he cares so much about his family to try to spend enough time with us and make a good living.

As for me, well there's been alot going on. I'm now writing the newsletter for my church (which I'm really excited about). I'm still teaching sunday school for the teens, but we haven't had classes in about a month since I got my room tore up painting and such, but that's ok we all still keep in touch.

Right now I'm trying to fiqure out what it is God is calling me to do. Have you ever had so many ideas run through your head that you feel all foggy up there? Well that's me, there's so much I wanna do for my family at home and at church but I feel overwhelmed by it all. Pray for God to help me sort through the confusion and find the answers!

Being Lead!

I feel that I'm being lead lately to blog about my faith in God. You see I become the Teen youth leader for my church in January, it has been a stuggle for me too! I'm stubborn when it comes to getting out of my comfort zone!


Let me start back at age 16 when I got saved. I was the type of kid that didn't see any bad in anyone so I was hanging around people that my parents didn't approve of. I liked boys! So my mom called a pastor friend of hers and he came out to talk to me. Before he left he asked if I wanted to get saved. I thought "well if it makes me quit liking boys, YEAH!" the way I was treated made me feel as though something was wrong with me for liking boys and only God could fix me. So he had me pray a salvation prayer and I was saved! I went to church by myself in Lexington Ohio but I soon lost interest when I developed a crush on a boy at church and eventually quit going. Something must be wrong with me! God didn't cure my crushes on boys. I spent the next 2 years trying to cure myself, I finally gave up,and walked away from my faith. I questioned everything. Does God exist? Doesn't God want me? Apparently not since he didn't cure my "crushes".
During all this (my whole life actually) I felt this calling of some kind on my life. I always thought to myself, "how can you use me since I like boys?" Somewhere I lost myself. The best thing God did was make me a good mom! Even though I had walked away from Him, He never walked away from me! He always kept my conscience visible to make me the mom that I'am.
In 1999 God kept putting it on my heart when I would drive past this church that I needed to go here, that same year my gallbladder almost put me 6 feet under and I came home with a new look on life. I told my husband that I wanted to go to church because God is the only reason why I"m still here. We attended Taylortown Community Church in Shelby Ohio.

That same year I found out that I was pregnant with our daughter. We had her in April of 2000 and Charlie and I seperated in August of that same year. He had had an affair on me 2 years earlier and God was really working on him about it. We stayed seperated for a month and during that time, I could feel God's presence with me the whole time! He was telling me to stay with my husband. What???? Are you kidding me??? I wanted to run from this man as far as I could!

So that brings us back to my comfort zone.

I'm still here!

I just looked at the date of my last post and the calendar and realized that on sunday it would have been 2 months since my last post. I've been struggling with what to post. So today while Charlie is sleeping I decided that I would work on some of my posts on here, I've also been on facebook alot.

Talk to ya later this morning!
Hopefully to bring some wonderful info
Have a blessed day

Many Blessings

This morning I was listening to Klove and a lady was giving glory to God,yesturday she was coming home and got a flat tire on the highway, she kept praying for God to send her someone to help her and a man showed up to offer her assistance, then a police officer showed up to direct traffic around her vehicle, when the man finished with changing her tire she went to give him a 10.00 bill and the gentleman handed her a 100.00 bill to help get a new tire! How awesome is God???

Ya know I have a family who love me very much and my children are my greatest gift from God!

God is good!

Yesturday I posted about a argument that I had with my dad. I've really been struggling with the honor your mother and father commandment for awhile now (it's actually been a few years) and I'm really trying to live a life that is pleasing to God, and with that arugment I'm not sure God would have been pleased.



I've come to realize that when I get angry I lose control of my emotions. Anger is something that I express more freely than anything else. This is what I was reading this morning and that's the reason for this post http://proverbs31devotions.blogspot.com/. Please click on repent, restart and repeat to get the message.My kids are a weakness for me but Satan doesn't get the chance to use them too much against me I think it's mostly because they are prayed over constantly, my relationship with my parents is a complete weakness cuz I've always seemed to struggle for acceptance from them which I've never really been able to obtain so satan uses them against me alot.



I will depend on God until he changes my heart toward forgivness with my parents and others that have hurt me deeply, it's all have I to stand on, nothing else can fix what God can fix and I'm secure with that. He is the voice of truth and love.

I need to understand that many have been abused, some worse than me, some not as much but at the same time we as humans with our human emotions have a hard time looking past the nose on our face to see others, I have a hard time with sometimes. But God says to be a servant to others partly because it allows thoughs that we are helping to have things that they might not be able to have by themselves and then I believe it's partly because when we are helping others it's keeps our minds off of ourselves and we focus on others.

I feel more like a fool cuz the words that my dad spoke I never would have thought that he would say things like that. I guess I grew up with the blinders on and only seen what I wanted to see. My parents were both abused growing up--mom was both physical and verbal and dad's was emotional abuse. Charlies was emotional and mine was both physical and verbal ummm looks like there's some similarities here. I very proud that I don't do these things to my children but I'm very emotionally and verbally abusive to Charlie. I'm not by no means an affectionate person toward him at all, my kids see this and hear some of the things I say about him and to him. Some of which I have to apologize for cuz the kids don't need to hear it.

As I sit here this morning the sunshine is just streaming in through my windows and showing signs that God has created a glorious day for us, but even with all the sunshine outside my heart is dark and heavy, full of confusion. Did I do the right thing? Was there a different way to handle the situation?

Yesturday I went to pick up my kids at my parents house and dad had hemmed up Leesha's pants for her, when we went to leave my dad decided to tell Leesha that he wasn't going to fix her biscuits and gravy anymore cuz she's getting a belly on her and she needed to lose weight. I spoke up and told him he doesn't need to be saying things like that to her, his response was "you need to be saying these things to her". WHAT??? Then this huge argument errupted and he threatened to smack my face and so I told him that my kids were not coming there anymore, he replied with "good". WHAT???? so we left

I'm not sure I handled that right, I know some people will say that I shouldn't have spoke up in front of Leesha but dang it he don't need to be talking about his grandchildren that way!

Please pray for guidance here

Have a blessed day