WARNING!!!

Have you ever felt like God was warning you to not do something? The bible definition of warning is (v) to give notice to befoehand especially of danger or evil; to counsel. There are 29 verses throughout the bible that have the word "warn" in them. Warnings I'am thankful to have providing that I listen to them. Last week I felt the urge to put something on my facebook page about me being a Jesus girl, which I did, but at the end of my post I also put that the devil didn't know who he was messing with. The whole time I was typing this I felt this warning in my stomach to not say that. I DIDN'T LISTEN! I have not had good days since I put that on my page. My heart has been so heavy with insecurities, my family has been seperated by words of others, deception has set in in the hearts of all of us. The devil has attacked everyone in my house all weekend long, and he still contiues to attack. I guess he got offended by what I said on my page that day! But the thing is, is that I didn't put that on my page for good reason, it was put there as a bragging right. Look at me everyone, I'm a good christian girl! But remember earlier that I had a warning to not post that. God knew that I wasn't posting it to encourage anyone, claiming any victory, or anything else with a good heart. It was put there with evil intentions (boasting is evil in God's eyes). Psalms 81:8 says "Listen to me, O my people, while I give you stern warnings. O Isreal, if you would only listen to me". Alot of times we suffer because we just don't listen. Reading through Psalms 81 we find 2 more verses 13 and 14 that say 13) Oh, that my people would listen to me! Oh that Isreal would follow me, walking in my paths! 14) How quickly I would then subdue their enemies! How soon my hands would be upon their foes!" OUCH!!, subdue my enemy? All it would have took was me listening to the warning that God was giving me and the whole weekend could have been different!

Now there's a theme here that I need to explain. Last weekend my daughters girl scout troop was spending the weekend camping at the girl scout house and I just had a bad attitude toward it. I didn't want to spend the weekend there (actually I didn't even want to spend 1 night there) and her leader and I have not been getting along. We work together with this troop, she is the leader and I'm the co-leader. We have not been seeing eye to eye for sometime and I just didn't want to have to spend that much time with her. So my attitude stunk like a skunk! I tried talking her out of staying all weekend and she wouldn't change her mind and that made me mad. I WASN'T GETTING WHAT I WANTED!!!! How dare she do that to me, so I had this idea the devil was attacking me with her so that's when I decided that I would post that on my facebook page. Was the devil really attacking me with her? NO!!, but God was trying to get me to give my hateful attitude toward everything to Him and do what He tells me to do. I thought I'd take the easy way out and rebuke the devil publically instead of submitting my attitude. Guess what, when He knew that I wasn't going to submitt it willingly He stepped aside and said "there ya go child, you are on your own". In the book of Job we read in the first chapter about the devil taking things away from Job and how God agreed to let this happen. Now I know that God didn't let this happen to Job because of anything that Job had done, but He let it happen to me because I needed to learn a valuable lesson. He stepped aside and let the devil torment me. When a woman has to be gone away from home the last thing she wants to deal with is her "monthly" friend, well guess what! Yep you guessed it, my friend arrived friday morning. Oh joy!!! I prayed all day for God to somehow cancel the camp out, apparently that's not what He wanted. At 6:00 Friday evening I was making phone calls to try to find unbaked pizza dough from the pizza shop in town, guess what NO ONE WAS ABLE TO SELL ME ANY BECAUSE OF THEIR STORE POLICY!!! Talk about getting even more aggitated! I ended up in the next town buying pizza dough, a trip by the way that was in the opposite direction of where I was going! Now mind you all the way there and back to the girl scout house I'm praying for God to "give me peace", which in my mind was giving me what I wanted---to not have to stay here. As time went on my attitude got worse and worse. 1:30 saturday morning I ended up coming home anyways! Got to coughing and couldn't stop, got up and stayed up til 3:30. Finally went to bed to wake up @ 7 a.m. 3 1/2 hours of sleep! Oh come on Lord, what are you doing to me???? Leesha had basketball, then it was back to the scout house to do cupcakes and help them make lasagna. Back home. Bad attitude still here. Go to bed. Wake up. Bad attitude still here. Do not go to church. Finish completing girl scout cookie orders. Bad attitude still here. Back to scout house. Leesha not feeling well. Bring her back home. Bad attitude still here. Load cookies for the girl's to get when they get picked up by mom/dad from their weekend stay at scout house. Bad attitude still here. Come home. Still here. Finally Monday morning, bad attitude still here. What the heck is going on??? Lord help me!! Agruement with Robby. Bad attitude is now worsening. AHHH!!! time for bed. Read next blog entry