Well it's almost the 2011 and I haven't posted much on here in 2010. I started blogging because I wanted to share what goes on with me and my family. What are hobbies are and things that we experience. I got really discouraged when I realized that no one reads it, but there is so much that I've learned over the last year that I realized I really should have kept my blogging up to date. It's not about how many people read it, it's about sharing with just right people/person at the right time. So here it goes and I promise that I will keep up with it in the coming new year (one of my resolutions).

I will give a quick highlight of 2010, first and most importantly my 2 children gave their life to Jesus, my daughter in Janurary and my son in May. In June the 2 of them and their dad all got baptized! This happened the day after we came home from Alive 2010 (if you don't know what this is here is the website Alive.org). I have a few pictures up on my facebook page (taylortown community church life teen). My son (Robby) started driving, decided that he wanted to go the Pioneer JVS, had his first girlfriend and got to play some varsity football. He's had a year of alot of changes but he's adjusted well. My daughter (Leesha) is really doing good in school, since she entered school she has struggled every year, we held her back in 2nd grade thinking that we might have started her too soon. That helped for that year because she remembered alot of things that she had already learned, but when she hit 3rd grade her sturggles started all over again except this time she got tested for learning disabilities and it came back that she struggles with short term memory. She is now in the 4th grade and has an IEP teacher to help with her work and she is having a TERRIFIC year. We have went to church regularly this year and man oh man has God really worked in our lives! My marriage isn't even close to the way it used to be. I feel like I got divorced and married a new man, (which by the way I'm still married to the same one LOL). God has worked on Charlie and I so much that it's hard to believe we are the same people.

I was talking to a friend a while back and was telling her about being discouraged lately, I was teaching the teens class at my church (Taylortown Community Church) and it really just wasn't going as I had planned. The attendance consisted of just my 2 kids and maybe 1 other one if I was lucky. I got really discourage and just stopped teaching, then I got the idea of feeding the football team after the friday night home games (thinking that if I could just get them into the church then maybe just maybe some of them would start coming to sunday school and church) well that didn't workout either. Have you ever felt like you had a calling to do something and then when you stepped out to do it, it didn't work out? Well that's where I was at. I have to be honest about this, I'm thinking that for right now I my calling might have been taken aways for awhile, that may not make sense but I got a "righteous" when I started teaching and got an holyier than thou attitude. I'd like to say not a bad attitude but in God's eyes it wasn't a humble attitude. Proud is the word I've been looking for (had to sit here for awhile and try to think of it). So anyways a couple of months ago when my friend and I were talking I was telling her about my struggles and she recommended that I keep a record of it. That's where this blog is coming in. Everyday I find myself struggling! Trying to live a life that reflects God's love, doing the right things, saying the right things, reading my bible and so on. Why does itseem to get so overwhelming sometimes? How many times am I going to go around this mountain? My favorite saying is from Joyce Meyer, "I might not be where I should be, but Thank God I'm not where I used to be". Isn't that the truth!~ I don't want to be anywhere near where I used to be a few years ago. I was sooo lost and spent soo much time feeling confused, rying to be at peace. That's one of the reason why I felt the urge to help with the kids, so many of them are lost and confused and terrified on the inside. I watch Robby (17) trying to act like he's got it all together, trying to make decisions on his own, sometimes handling situations that he's just no able to handle by himself and he's not the only one I know, his friends are the same way. My heart just aches for these kids. I don't want any of them to have to wait until they are grown to have peace, that's my goal.