I feel that I'm being lead lately to blog about my faith in God. You see I become the Teen youth leader for my church in January, it has been a stuggle for me too! I'm stubborn when it comes to getting out of my comfort zone!
Let me start back at age 16 when I got saved. I was the type of kid that didn't see any bad in anyone so I was hanging around people that my parents didn't approve of. I liked boys! So my mom called a pastor friend of hers and he came out to talk to me. Before he left he asked if I wanted to get saved. I thought "well if it makes me quit liking boys, YEAH!" the way I was treated made me feel as though something was wrong with me for liking boys and only God could fix me. So he had me pray a salvation prayer and I was saved! I went to church by myself in Lexington Ohio but I soon lost interest when I developed a crush on a boy at church and eventually quit going. Something must be wrong with me! God didn't cure my crushes on boys. I spent the next 2 years trying to cure myself, I finally gave up,and walked away from my faith. I questioned everything. Does God exist? Doesn't God want me? Apparently not since he didn't cure my "crushes".
During all this (my whole life actually) I felt this calling of some kind on my life. I always thought to myself, "how can you use me since I like boys?" Somewhere I lost myself. The best thing God did was make me a good mom! Even though I had walked away from Him, He never walked away from me! He always kept my conscience visible to make me the mom that I'am.
In 1999 God kept putting it on my heart when I would drive past this church that I needed to go here, that same year my gallbladder almost put me 6 feet under and I came home with a new look on life. I told my husband that I wanted to go to church because God is the only reason why I"m still here. We attended Taylortown Community Church in Shelby Ohio.
That same year I found out that I was pregnant with our daughter. We had her in April of 2000 and Charlie and I seperated in August of that same year. He had had an affair on me 2 years earlier and God was really working on him about it. We stayed seperated for a month and during that time, I could feel God's presence with me the whole time! He was telling me to stay with my husband. What???? Are you kidding me??? I wanted to run from this man as far as I could!
So that brings us back to my comfort zone.
